I feel tender. Not tender as in sore or in pain. Tender as in new, vulnerable, sensitive. Perhaps it's hormonal. I certainly know that the early pregnancy hormone surges I've been having are bringing alot of feelings, usually buried, rising to the surface. Perhaps it's the upcoming holiday season which always has me feeling sentimental, nostalgic, and longing for a deeper spiritual connection. Regardless of why, I feel a heightened sensitivity, a tenderness of spirit, and a longing for Peace and Grace.
It's hard for me to bring myself to write here. I think about my blog all the time. Think about the readers who stop by and are disappointed not to see a new post. Think about the other bloggers that I follow and how I should comment more often on the beautiful way they share their souls. But I'm in a quiet place right now. I feel a need to be cocooned. Not because I'm sad, or unhappy or down. I'm just tuning inward and finding quietude & stillness. My world right now is my baby and the baby too come. I'm not doing creative projects, unless you call shopping for warm stretchy pants and cuddly tops a creative project :). I'm spending a lot of time daydreaming about the holiday season. Winter is coming on and I think my spirit feels a bit of a need to hibernate. Maybe I should just sign up for another ecourse so that I have something to post about but I can't find a course to suit what I'm longing for now; a connection to the sacred, a celebration of motherhood, the hearth & home; old fashioned family time and holiday traditions. If anyone hears of courses covering any of these topics PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
No pictures this week. Just words. Is that too boring for readers? I'd love to know where YOU are at spiritually right now?