How can I start living mindfully?How do I live authentically and with
purpose? How do I become the woman I've always dreamed of being? Such
big concepts that in the past have sent me straight to the fridge for
some Pepsi & ice cream to eat while watching mind numbing yet nerve
soothing reruns as a way to hide from such painful introspection. I
always put off beginning the work. Year after year I dream but I never
really do anything.
As I posted earlier last week, I turned 38 & began a new year of my
life. Two years from now I will be 40. 40! Definitely a grown up age.
I need to get myself together. It is time. I don't want to waste my
life dreaming of living a certain lifestyle. I want to actually live
it. Trying to change is overwhelming. Which is why so few of us do it
unless we're forced too. It's just plain HARD.
While scrapping two day old crud off the kitchen counter this
morning and thinking about how I wish I could be a different, better,
person I had an epiphany. I thought "Maybe I don't have to tackle
these giant ideas of self improvement. Maybe I can just make this more
simple & easy to start with." Then it came to me in a flash. Each
morning I can start my day with one little question, "How do I want to
live my life today?" Such a simple concept really. The things I choose
to do and not do are what make up my life. I am the one in charge. I
can choose how I live moment by moment and those choices will be the
foundation of building a better me. Wow.
Now, if I can only put this little epiphany into action. And why do I
want to improve & be the best I can be? One simple word: