I want to be a more patient, gentle, engaged and pleasantly upbeat understanding Mom.
I want to be a more charming, fun, spontaneous,bubbly yet responsible supportive Wife
I want to be a hospitable, yummy healthy cooking, spotlessly organized, DIY queen HomeMaker
I want to look great, feel great, and do all the things I've always dreamed of doing.
The only way to change my life is to just DO IT. I have to step up, take charge, put in the work and change my routines and habits. Ain't nobody gonna do it for me. The house isn't going to become a cozy, clean, lovely haven if I continue napping and reading all day and never clean anything up. I can't be loving and engaged with my kids if I spend all free time staring at my phone or iPad. Healthy meals won't suddenly appear if all I buy is junk food and frozen meals. I am SO LAZY. So INCREDIBLY LAZY. And spoiled. And Self absorbed. And did I mention LAZY. I'm not just beating up on myself either. It's the god's honest truth. Laziness is probably my strongest personal trait at this point. I have wasted 25 years of my life being too lazy to put in the work to live the life I want to live. It's not like it's complicated. You want a healthy body; exercise. Want healthy meals; get out a freaking cook book and make them. But do I do the simple things it would take to become happy.??? Heck no. That would involve a little work and discipline. God forbid I should have to put in effort. That might interrupt my napping and daydreaming time!!
So basically I know at heart that I just have to get up and do whatever it takes to get what I want. Just put in a little effort. Put on my big girl panties and Get busy. And it's time to start. NOW. No more wishing and hoping and dreaming while wallowing in laziness. I am getting off my butt and taking charge of how I live my life.
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
A year ago my cousin Penny died in a car crash. She was a year older than I, 42 at the time, and suddenly out of the blue she was gone. Three months ago my younger sister was diagnosed with cervical cancer and has begun a fight for her life. Both of these sudden calamities has awakened me to the realization of how short and precious life truly is. None of us is guaranteed a long, happy life. Each moment holds the potential to be our last. And yet, how few of us are living our lives to the utmost? How many of us are fully present and engaged every moment? I want, I NEED, to seize each day; to stop living in daydreams or for tomorrow; to get up and JUST DO IT. Each Second. Each Moment. Fully Lived. Life is too short and too precious to waste even a single hour.
Written by Meegan at 1:18 AM